I’ve been super busy so I haven’t had a chance to update my Champix journey. So the first week was crap!
The second week I was getting through an entire day (most days it was 9pm) before I caved. A few times I picked one up and realised how terrible it would make me smell and I put it down.
The tablets were really bothering me last week. I would feel nauseous all morning & I was exhausted. My appetite was (and still is) out of control so I spent a lot of my time looking for healthy sweet treats. Needless to say I was unsuccessful and still have a major sugar craving. I have been snacking on almonds, ham & yogurt and steering clear of bread, pasta, refined sugar or anything prepared.
I went out over the long weekend - Friday and Saturday nights involved a lot of drinking.
Friday I didn’t smoke as much as I use too but god did I feel bad on Saturday morning. I could tell it wasn’t from the alcohol, it was the nasty cigarettes. Because I knew Saturday was the last day I could smoke I went to town. Although they tasted terrible & made me dizzy. I broke a promise to myself and had a cigarette half way through dinner, the smell was overwhelming and I felt really bad for everyone at the table. It was a bit of an eye opener.
When Sunday morning rolled around we were still out – It’s what long weekends are about!!! I had my last cigarette.
As of 2pm Thursday 4th October I have not had a cigarette and most of the time I do not want one. There have been some moments where I’ve thought ‘it’s time for a smoke’ but the urge is gone and I haven't given in.
I’m happy with my progress so far but I am really doubting the strength of my willpower… We have birthdays and Christmas parties coming up and I know that I will drink. For me drinking = smoking. Hopefully by the time December rolls around I’ll be feeling stronger.
I am very concerned about putting on weight, the hunger is out of control but being tired from the tablets is driving me crazy. I just want to exercise but I have no energy at all. I have next week planned and I really want to stick to it.
I forgot to mention the dreams… I have been having batsh*t crazy dreams since I started these tablets. I have hung out with Pink & the Kardashians, dealt with police officers, people from work quit and everything else under the sun. At the moment they aren’t nightmares, if that happens I have to go back to the doctor.
Oh and I have been sleeping without the aid of anything WOOHOO. For the past 18months to 2 years I have always had something to help me sleep. Now I don’t even need my ‘nighty night’ tea and I have even fallen asleep on the couch twice. Cray!
Woohoo... Sounds like you're going well so far... keep it up :)
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